I’d been having nightly dreams I couldn’t recall but somehow woke up happy. It was the strangest thing considering how overwhelmed I often felt when “dealing” with my life. And then I had one where she told me just to let it all unfold… – JHF OH NO, NOT THAT! I thought about it half [...]
Road Trip
Oh my look out
WOKE UP AT 3:00 A.M because a female voice was saying, “Let me in,” but I was dreaming in the dream. Walked to my front door and opened it. All was pitch black, scary, no one there. Turned on the outside light and flung the screen door open. Something caught my eye off to the [...]
Weminuche Wilderness in Colorado. Headwaters of the Rio Grande.
THE SHOES CAME FIRST, before the Colorado thing. They’d been staring at me for over a year. There were piles of Kathy clothing in the bedroom I’d been sorting to help her manage after the 21-day stroke “rehab” that flew right past her. My baby never had a chance. After she died the piles turned [...]
5-4-2022
“Please be happy. I’m all right. You’re all right. Everybody is all right…”spoke the almost silent whisper in my head, though louder than before. It was her because I never talk like that. I’d been feeling guilty, naturally. As if there were something wrong with feeling more like the man she always saw in me [...]
At the Keota Cemetery the evening before the burial. Oh that face.
“Hi, I’m the digger,” the big guy said as I arrived at the cemetery in Keota, Iowa a little before noon on April 5, 2022, one year to the day since Kathy died. He looked the part. (I wasn’t dressed like in the image above. That would be the day before, when I pulled in [...]
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