The days and nights are all a-jumble with the snow. I don’t know where one stops and another one starts. When did it begin, last week? Feels like the stuff has been drifting down in tiny little flakes since I was born. It just keeps building. We woke up this morning to at least another six inches of fresh snow on top of what we already had.
Almost half a foot fell the night before as well. I do remember that. The next day my wife and I spent three hours shoveling snow so we could get the car out. She was unstoppable and insisted on shoveling the entire road as far as the community mailbox. I can’t call it work because I was having too much fun. Once the snow reaches a certain depth, I’m excavating instead of cleaning. The artist in me plans the paths and shapes the snow. When there isn’t any wind, like yesterday, I hardly notice the cold. It feels good just being outside in all that beauty. All the shoveling paid off, too. Later that afternoon, I was able to drive us to the bank. The roads were fine, and Taos was still there.
The thing is, though, that dealing with the snow is all you can do. I certainly haven’t been able to write, and my wife can’t get to her studio to pack or play the piano. Every day I have to dig the paths and uncover the wood pile, and other important things need taking care of. Today, for example, I went up on the roof for the first time in weeks, because water from melting snow was running down the kitchen wall and threatening to float the cat box. As charming as it is, this place is just as bio-degradable as any old adobe; it’s a feature, not a bug, unless you’re living in one at the time. Anyway, once up on the roof I realized I had to clear the snow from around the canales (roof drainspouts) if there was to be any hope of getting the meltwater off the roof. The snow was almost two feet deep, and I had lots to shovel. In the process, I discovered the snow had all but covered a sewer vent and the vent for the bathroom gas heater. If the latter were stopped up, we could go to sleep and never wake up, so it’s a good thing I climbed up there.
Overnight it snowed some more. Not enough to undo all the work I put in yesterday, but partly. We haven’t had the car on the road for two days now. My morning task is to clear the area around the car and do what I can to make the top of the driveway passable. When we did get out on Friday, our two hundred yard stretch of dirt road abandoned by the county was unbelievably bad: the holes are so large and deep, the car was on the verge of bottoming out. When two feet of snow decide to melt all at once over the next few days, we could well be stranded by the mud.
As a way of life, this simply will not do. Neither the spirit nor the body can withstand it. We absolutely have to move, like I’ve been saying for five years now. If old-time Taos winters are coming back, I’m not about to live out in the sagebrush, whether the county plows or not. To stay in Taos, we’ll need to find a home in town. Hitting the road is problematic and expensive, too. The thing I tend to forget is that our old farm house in the Maryland countryside required emergency attention every winter just like this place does. Maybe even more! Strong northeast winds would peel the siding off. Melting snow routinely flooded the basement and wrecked the screen porch. The balky oil furnace often failed to light just when the temperature fell and threatened all the pipes. But spring did come eventually, and not with snow and dust storms like it does here. The road was paved, too, and I miss that.
The weather is a factor no matter where you live, but everything about our life now seems so daunting. Recently someone told me that I’d already lived the “Taos dream” and didn’t have to any longer. I knew exactly what she meant. Living just beyond your means, savings slowly dwindle. The intensity of the highs and lows can break you, and if you stay too long, you end up stuck. I call this the Taos Trap™. The other day my wife said (not for the first time), “I’ve done Taos! I’m done!” No explanation needed, especially if you’ve been here long enough to understand the history and sociology.
I honestly don’t know how to stay or where to go. In my confusion, I tend to try too hard and miss the obvious, like trusting in the flow of life. The road to just a little bit of ease, if not to Easy Street itself, is surely right beneath my nose. The key thing here is calmness. Slow down, read the tea leaves, know that we are loved, appreciate the Now.
Does anything make more sense? Is anything more real?
You are not alone. I was driven out of Arkansas by the heat, which abated the very day I drove away, according to Mom, but I detest living in air conditioning, and refused to get mine fixed for years. But now their winters are colder and icier, so I hesitate to move back, but I am considering it.
So here it is getting so dry the trees are looking dead in town. People do not seem to water them, I think water is expensive and maybe rationed, so every big wind brings huge trees down on the cars and houses, and you can see that the trees were rotten inside. And yet, it is not as dry as where we were in California, so land prices are high from those folks moving here. Plus legalization.
At least we do not live in Maine. Or Syria.
It’s that dry in Ashland, Oregon? Who knew? But yes, a lot of people in this “fix.” Nothing I don’t like here will ever change, a persistent dynamic I’ve observed everywhere I’ve lived, so what does THAT mean, really? 🙂
I think it means that it would really be good to move. I do not know for sure about another person, but from all that has been communicated here, I would say – get a house-sitter, throw some things in the car and start looking for your new spot. I have a granddaughter in Durango and will visit her, hopefully soon. What about there? Closer to Santa Fe?
I’d love to move. I wish I felt a pull in some direction, but I don’t. Not allowing it, perhaps.
You know we will always welcome you back to the Midwest.
Everyone will say I am crazy from eating too much cheese, but we still love Wisconsin(and Iowa).
“Back to the Midwest”? But I’ve never lived in the Midwest. 🙂
Your wife has! And you have visited many times…
I’m the antithesis of everything Midwestern. Why do you think she fell in love with me? 🙂 I’ll admit, sometimes I’m tempted, but then I think it wouldn’t be a good fit. You never know, though. At least y’all have curbs.
Eh, I don’t believe it. Ever been to Iowa City?
[Edited] Oh sure. I could see that. But did you ever read this?
And here’s something interesting: I don’t know where I’ve been hiding, but I just discovered Dar Williams. What an amazing song. This excerpt from the first verse just kills me. Really describes Iowa for me:
But way back where I come from, we never mean to bother,
We dont like to make our passions other peoples concern,
And we walk in the world of safe people, and at night we walk into our houses and burn.
Iowa oh ooo oh, Iowa oh ooooh ooo oh I-Iowa