Can’t Sleep, Can’t Die

old wreck of a farm on the edge of the valley near Taos


Freaking Llano, freaking Taos. Hernia scar won’t shut up, either. Don’t poke me like that in the night, don’t make me scared to breathe. Dead mother’s taxes, freezing ass cold. Bloody hell and gone, been there, done that. Sick of bad habits and struggling, too. Stuck like this bastard with all of his junk. Why am I living, what can I give?

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  • dar March 1, 2013, 7:22 AM

    ha! itty bitty hernia nick, prof John – my scar is the length of the inner thigh…10”long 1/2” wide…40 yr old motorbike mishap: clutch lever ripped it open…15 yrs later fell off the roof & that same leg caught the gutter & the groin acted as a bungee cord…torn real good …sciatic nerve pain is the result, esp if you have to shovel wet,heavy snow for a couple of hours …two days in a row.
    FIX fot ALL pain whether neuropathic,myalgic,arthritic or phantom is Epsom Salts!
    –> wet your hands&painful area,rub in EpsomSalts,apply a capful of organic apple cider vinegar over that& as a coup de grace, massage the works with extra virgin coconut oil.
    2 gallons of horse liniment per year don’t work half as well…plus the transdermal mag application …just google ‘benefits of magnesium’ & prepare to be amazed…mag impacts 800 body processes…& alleviates depression,diabetes,heart arrhythmia, for example.
    [caveat: elimination of dairy products is essential. check out Dr.McDougall on youtube]

    • JHF March 1, 2013, 10:41 PM

      Man, you write a mean motorcycle crash description & follow-up. Bungee cord, mad genius! Dig the Epsom salts and magnesium, thank you.

  • Ken Webb March 1, 2013, 7:56 AM

    Damn, that’s pure poetry, both the pic and the text. Seriously, a guy who can write with that kind of wit and take those kinds of pics can’t be all done in yet. I’ll reserve my pity for the poor bastards on their featherbeds sleeping the sleep of complacent imbecility while you carry on the struggle.

    • JHF March 1, 2013, 10:11 AM

      Not done in here! Might do in here, though.

    • JHF March 1, 2013, 10:45 PM

      I’m a-strugglin’. Feels like… life! Or as we used to say in Abilene, “laff.”

  • Gillian Booth March 1, 2013, 9:02 AM

    I could get worried about you, our John; are you having what used to be delicately referred to as a nervous breakdown? Maybe all the stuff’s coming up that couldn’t emerge while your ma was alive. I sound like a shrink here but I am concerned that you use that bile constructively. For if it’s in, it sure does need to come out.

    • JHF March 1, 2013, 9:52 AM

      Did you not hear the man praise me for POETRY?!?

    • JHF March 1, 2013, 11:05 AM

      Free association at 4:00 a.m. All true, no sweat. And don’t you like the question? 🙂

  • dar March 1, 2013, 9:17 AM

    here ya go:
    Traci Styner,The Real Food Channel-
    The shocking truth about dairy
    John McDougall MD routinely reverses
    and cures serious diseases like diabetes
    and heart disease simply by helping his
    patients change their diets.
    In his experience, the most important
    thing to remove from your diet is dairy
    I realize that a lot of people are not
    going to want to hear this, but the
    science is overwhelming.
    The scary thing is that advertising dollars
    from the milk and cheese industry keeps
    this simple information from getting to
    the public.
    Here’s a simple thing you can do to
    significantly improve your health.
    Video (1:17:07)

    • JHF March 1, 2013, 10:03 AM

      But dar, my health is perfect! And I LOVE milk and cheese. I’m even losing weight…

      • dar March 1, 2013, 10:24 AM

        agreed, prof John, You ‘know’ your body. [ ms Kath,a luvly neighbor, said the same thing when i begged her to lay off the stuff…3 yrs later,she died of ovarian cancer]
        – to h^ll with Dr.McD’s stuff & the likes of Dr. Caldwell Esselstyn, former Olympic rowing champion, author of the 2007 book Prevent and Reverse Heart Disease

        • JHF March 1, 2013, 10:44 AM

          Sooner or later you’ll always be right. 🙂 But what if you convinced someone they’d die? People are suggestible. It’s built in, like remembering a tune. Ye gods, I’m still unlearning stuff.



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