Juan del Llano and the Holy Dirt

old Taos adobe

Biodegradable mansion on the hill

Juan del Llano couldn’t breathe. On this sunny late October day, the air inside the old adobe was just too funky. Meanwhile, at the other end of the room from where he sat to write, his wife was balancing her checkbook, a task he gave up twenty years ago after websites were invented because the bank was never wrong. Her muttered grumbling and bewilderment, though muted, rippled the mirror of the quiet lake inside his brain. There was nothing for it, Juan decided, but to go outside and play.

Winter was approaching, or so they said. The two northern New Mexico seasons being “partly thawed” and “frozen dead,” it was time to tidy up outside before his tools and other valued objects disappeared beneath the coming snow. It was time, but Juan was Juan: in a dozen years at this location, he’d already let the outside spigot freeze and break three times. Getting right to the heart of the matter then, and because the broom did not weigh much, he decided that sweeping the “patio” outside the front door was imperative and set to work.

The task involved removing the top loose layer of the hardpan clay. By sweeping up the sand and leaves, he’d have a base of rock-hard dirt, awesome to behold until it flooded from the runoff and became a bog. Grateful to be outside in the sun and free from the temptation to offer unwelcome accounting advice, he toiled patiently until the job was done, then sat down with a beer to survey his accomplishment.

The dead landlord’s patio chairs were in a new location—he’d moved them as he worked and hadn’t put them back—and Juan was jolted by the new perspective. Instead of the familiar mountain view, he now looked directly at the house: the old adobe, impossibly cheap “old Taos” rental they couldn’t live without, epitome of cozy wretchedness, emblem of imagined doom—except he liked the place this time, or was it gratitude?

The thing was, though, they’d done it, the entire Taos murder trip, yet both of them were still together, healthy, and the love danced in her eyes. Instead of keeping score, Juan was hungry to advance and knew they would. After all, the only truly stupid thing he’d ever done was be unhappy—crazy like the river rolling to the sea—and he wasn’t bitching now.

John Hamilton Farr lives in Taos, New Mexico, U.S.A. with his classical pianist wife. “Possibly the only place I can get away with this,” he says. As New York Times best-selling author James C. Moore (Bush’s Brain) put it in a review of John’s first book, Buffalo Lights is the work of a man attuned to the world who sees it differently than you and I and writes about it with a language and a vision of life that is impossible to ignore.” John is the author of BUFFALO LIGHTS, TAOS SOUL, ANOTHER DAY IN PARADISE, and THE HELEN CHRONICLES. He has been publishing online since 1996 (Zoo Zone, Farr Site, MacFaust, GRACK!, FarrFeed) and blogs regularly here at JHFARR.COM. See also → John’s Twitter profile, Amazon Author Page, video channel at YouTube, and website photos at SmugMug. To email John, please see CONTACT INFO on About page.  

  • Carmel November 3, 2015, 1:14 AM

    Good one Juan. It reminded me to be grateful for what I’ve got, instead of commiserating over what I lack.

    • JHF November 3, 2015, 11:37 AM

      Hey Carmel! Attitude is everything, I hear. Anything can manifest!

  • Marti Fenton November 3, 2015, 2:07 PM

    How the moods change like the weather in this place. Yes, its good to dream yet in the meantime to enjoy the humble dirt we stand on and live in.

    • JHF November 3, 2015, 10:18 PM

      Mood change? Who, me???

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